Wednesday, October 01, 2008

The Watchman

John Ford, 2008

 

 

You don’t see him.

He’s been standing there for years,

Alone upon the wall we share to shelter us from fears.

This job you gave him some while back that raised him from the flock,

Took him too, from hearth and kin to stand out on that rock.

But you don’t see him.

 

You won’t see him.

Your frolic steals your care,

You play and laugh and feast and love, of perils unaware.

You trust that if the wicked lurks beyond this hedge, he’ll know,

And sound the Claxton, blow the horn, and warn before it shows.

But you won’t see him.

 

You can’t see him.

He doesn’t fit into your plans.

A hundred things you’d rather do than what he might demand.

His words aren’t soft, he asks too much uprightness from your walk,

And when he speaks his words sound harsh, there’s brimstone when he talks.

But you can’t see him.

 

He sees you.

You think he’s not aware.

Your secret faults aren’t hidden well, concealed by you with little care.

As if corruption’s fell assault comes from without, but not within,

And one who’s given to your keep won’t notice any of your sin.

But he sees you.

 

He calls to you.

In exhortation and in prayer,

You listen with a jaundiced ear, ignore admonishments he’s shared.

And turn the bile of wrath outward, and not on self, as though you could

Your umbrage change to righteousness, and bend the truth to serve your mood.

Yet he still calls to you.

 

He frets for you.

Like a father for his brood,

Who sees his kinder cast their moorings, drift away, bound for no good.

Those whom you trust to be your beacons, ought search for what their troth has brought.

They play among you with abandon, cast out their caution with your lot.

And he still frets for you.

 

You shan’t see him.

How long can a disarmed watchman wait?

For countless years upon this bulwark, walking post with steady gait,

In weather fowl, at darkest even, through sorrows deep standing his ground,

Unseen, not heeded, unsought, unknown, he’ll step aside without a sound.

And you shan’t see him. 

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Doyle Souser was a dear friend of mine who perished in the tragic Metrolink Train Wreck in Chatsworth, California in September of 2008. His were the very last remains removed from the wreckage. I knew Doyle for nearly twenty-five years. We served together as Elders in Christ's Church, and our families literally grew up together. Doyle's eldest daughter Kelsey is one of my daughter Grace's dearest lifelong friends. Doyle's dear widow, Claudia is similarly one of my wife Theresa's closest confidants.

Ironically, early in the summer before Doyle's tragic death, he and I shared the signal honor of presiding over the funeral of a common dear friend of a quarter century (and our former Pastor), Christopher Hoops.

The afternoon of the accident, Doyle took an earlier train toward home than he would normally have been on. As I reflected on the many ironies of the day, I was struck by the fact that my friend stepped onto a train in Glendale some time in the early afternoon of that Friday, and stepped off in the City of God in Eternity.

Doyle grew up on a farm in Colorado, and was the son and grandson of farmers. He never actually stopped being a "tiller of the soil" although 'tiller' and 'soil' took on more metaphorical meanings in Doyle's later ministry. Today, Doyle’s wife and children carry on the work of his earthly ministry, and remain integrally connected to the Church, to the Gospel, to the ‘soil’, and to each other. Doyle's earthly remains were lovingly interred in the family plot (the Field of His Fathers) in Colorado, where he rests in peace, a man after God's heart, awaiting the Resurrection of the Dead, and life in glory in the New Heavens and the New Earth.
IN THE FIELDS OF MY FATHERS
A Requiem in the loving memory of Doyle J. Souser
John Ford
September 12, 2008

In verdant grasses kissed with rain, I oft would run and walk,
My parents always right beside me, strolling as they talked.
A boy that never felt a time without my mother’s love,
Or knew a day my father’s strength didn’t gird me like a glove.
Those days were bright with future’s call, a siren song still distant,
I was safe there yet, a child of hope, so young, and for that instant,
Before I grew and sought my way- my personal path to wander,
‘Twas there I nursed, in homestead reared…
At Play in the Fields of my Fathers.

When as a youth, I gained in strength, and stature near a man,
My kindred led me in the Way, and taught me of God’s plan,
My troth I pledged, my strength to spend, in tilling soil He’d bless,
To bring forth grass to feed the Ox, or grain to reap and thresh.
An image of the Sower’s Tale, inspired me to my life’s call:
Prepared soil brings greater increase, despite the curse of Adam’s fall.
A Farmer was I, to farming I plied me, and learned what I could as I carried that halter,
My sweat and my earnest I tilled in the furrows…
At Work in the Fields of my Fathers.

Sunrise haste, and sunsets flee, time marshaled me within its pale,
Until in manhood’s bloom I’d risen, got parent-blessing, and slipped the veil.
From farm and field I swiftly parted, more miles behind, than facing me.
I found my work, rejoiced my calling: prepare soul-soil for Gospel-seed.
Through years of trials and profound blessing, faithful bride to share my dream,
Quiver filled with namesake blessings, mimic God’s Electing Scheme.
A Farmer was I, and never ceased being, for years I was true to my father’s accord,
Tilling, and plowing, and sowing, and reaping…
At Work in the Fields of my Lord.

Now we have come to our earth’s final parting, gathered am I to my kindred before,
In tears you will gather in love’s lamentation, bittersweet tomes will be told by the score.
For you it is hard to see God’s greatest blessings, often are joined to life’s greatest distress.
For I have gained heaven, and now stand in Glory, with One who was Slain my whole life I professed.
The sting of my passing can’t vie with its glories, our parting is short, and one day you’ll see,
That the glories of heaven eclipse all your trials, right now you are sad, but please, don’t cry for me.
Just carry my vessel with earthly affection, to that verdant home field where now tarry the others,
As seeds await Spring, so I too resurrection, A Farmer am I …
At rest in the Fields of my Fathers.

One day we’ll all see Him not through a glass dimly, enthroned before mankind, on His Judgment Seat,
Full measure of wrath poured on the forsaken, unspeakable joy to His Elect will He mete.
On that day my Dear Ones, we’ll be reunited, with glorified bodies and oneness of mind,
With purest affection and filled with true knowledge, washed and bejeweled, His reveal-ed Bride.
We’ll thrill to His calling, in anthems we’ll chorus, with heavenly hosts we’ll extol His name,
No more will we sorrow at death’s earthly parting, no more will we strive after earth’s passing fame,
Too busy with gladness, too filled up with bliss, we’ll join long lost friends, and in one grand accord,
Under New Heavens, in New Earth, a Farmer, a Teacher, their Seed…
At Play in the Fields of our Lord!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

KALEB SMILES

God Thunders.
Heaven trembles,
Earth moves,
Kaleb wheezes…

God Directs.
Mother quakes,
Doctor reflects,
Kaleb weakens…

God Speaks.
Nurse muses,
Father questions,
Kaleb decreases…

God Conveys.
Surgeon plots,
Church at prayer,
Kaleb clings…

God Moves.
Surgeon exalts,
Morning waxes…
Kaleb seizes.

God Commands.
Elders Pray,
Oil Flows,
Seizure ceases…

God Imparts.
Doctor ponders,
Church intercedes,
Kaleb strives …

God Bellows.
Doctor qualms,
Parents sorrow,
Kaleb sleeps…

God Roars.
Tests portend,
Parents forebode,
Kaleb Sleeps…

God Whispers.
Doctor marvels.
Nurse amazed.
…KALEB SMILES!

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

A Prayer for Kaleb

Such a small thing for You,
But the whole world to her
Who bore him in her womb
And longs to care and nurse.

Such a small thing for You,
Who made all things from dust,
And printed on so few
The imprint of the Just.

Such a small thing for You,
But life’s great call for him,
And from whose seed You grew
His likeness once mere dream.

Such a small thing for You,
Whose image we all bear
Though dim and dull of hue
Have made us Sons and Heirs.

Such a small thing for You,
But our whole thought and care
And in whom we imbue
The earnest of our prayers.

One mere thought from You who spoke the Word that out of chaos all became.

One whisper of Your perfect will makes blind to see and heals the lame.

One vapor of your sovereign breath makes kingdoms fall and stars to wane.

Such a small thing for You.